HEARTBREAK #5

Never felt heartbreak
like this.
Looking on,
watching it eat
at you,
my
dearest
friend.
The pain expressed
from
deep
within
broke my heart.
The tears that flowed
down
into
a puddle
of hurt
and
confusion
made me want to
hold you
But the anger
towards yourself
the feeling that you
had made a terrible
mistake
only deepened
the despair
that
I felt for you.
Knowing you
will
shut out
the flow of any
love
from any
man.
I pray
your pain
breaks
allowing
love to flow
in once more
and this
heart ache
be a
distant
memory.

~These words are from my heart to yours. My thoughts spun to words. Be kind and respect them.~

HEARTBREAK #4

I have never been dumped
seriously
what the hell
OK
for the record
you were kind
open
genuinely
even sweet
your eyes looked down
your fingers fidgeting
I wanted to hold you
to tell you
that it was going to
be fine
I’m not sure
I knew what was
coming
but maybe I did
maybe I knew for weeks
that we were no longer
Normally I’d have walked away
cut and run
called it off
beat you to it
but I didn’t
I was hopeful
I was in love
of some sort
maybe I was ready to
wait you out
I missed the chance
to protect
myself
my heart
from the crumbling
feeling
the hurt
but
it
is
what
it
is:
My First Dump

HEARTBREAK #3

Weeks of busy
missed opportunities
I have been
anticipating your
inevitable
presence
the recent
teasing here
and there
had me hopeful
we finally talk
but
my excitement
goes cold
when I realize
our nearest
possible date
where you and I
will connect
in mind
body and
spirit
is weeks away
“tentatively”
written in pencil
not pen
did I miss
something
I suddenly realize
us
on different pages
different
points of expectations
where
you are not
eager to
exchange
dreams,
ideas,
kisses,
or strokes
followed
by sounds
of orgasms
that I
we would induce
instead
what
just
happened
is
my heart
splitting
getting
cold
as it imagines
itself
on a shelf
forgotten
unwanted
undesired
unloved

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HEARTBREAK #2

The rain pours hard
and my heart
beats
steady
mirroring the
pita-pata
of the drops
that fall
that wash away a
day’s worth of
intense
discovery
“I’m getting married”
I swallow
and let the
words
expressed
settle
like a snowball
shaken
I can’t see yet
wanting the
message to sink in
a flurry of emotions
unsaid
love still present
I breathe in
the exchange of
what is actually
being said
like an out of body
experience
I watch myself
gracefully
accept an
invitation
As my mind’s eye
firmly takes on the
lable
“friend”
letting go the
possibility
of anything else
the snow in
my mind settles
thousands of tiny
white pieces
sprawled around me
like the pieces of my heart
within me

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Heartbreak #1

When one speaks of a heart break
Do they FEEL it?
A reverberating sense
Of the whole
an awareness of the self
literally
breaking
in peices

When one speaks of a heart ache
Do they HEAR it?
the loud silence
filling the ear drums
like the sound of a vacant
shell
only a past
linguring
behind

When one speaks of heart pain
Do they TASTE it?
the strong
bitterness left
like a bad memory
gone sour
gone bad
gone cold

My heart speaks no more